I know Akri doesn’t like me to describe myself as such, but this is how I feel tonight. Defective. Broken. I feel like if only I could be more intimate with those that I’m currently in relationships with that it would fix all that. But part of me is so scared because I’m not feeling very sensual or sexual at the moment.
So, I feel as if there’s something majorly wrong with me. And perhaps there is. I mean, I’m a frakkin succubus. This should be a natural thing for me. So it’s got me thinking that there’s all kinds of things wrong with me. Like I don’t even know my identity anymore.
Maybe this is just a difficult time in my life right now. It shouldn’t be. So many things are going right. So why does it feel like everything is falling apart?