I’ve tried for years to feel like I was connected to something bigger than myself. But try as I might, I continue to feel like an outcast. I’m not quite sure why that is, though. I’m an interesting person. I know for a fact that I have a lot I can bring to the table. Yet that feeling of belonging to a community eludes me.
Maybe I just complain too much. After all, I have a wonderful Akri and a beautiful little bird that both love and accept me for who and what I am. Shouldn’t that be enough?
At the same time, however, Akri and Morika both have Second Life, where they have friends and family and a community that accepts and loves them. And, I have to admit, I’m a little jealous. I know I can’t be part of that.
Perhaps it all just boils down to my terrible self-esteem issues. As much as I’d like to say “I don’t ACT like I have low self-esteem, so how do the people who treat me poorly or ignore me know?” I think that’s probably the most likely thing it could be.
But is it really too much to ask to be respected in a field of my choosing?