Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Stream

I’ve been intending to write for a while now, but what I wanted to write just hasn’t been coming out.  So in an attempt to get that jump started, I’m just going to write what comes to mind.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with many issues regarding myself and my self image.  I don’t even know if self image is the word I want.  Self perception?  I’m not sure.  But I know I’ve been changing.  And that tends to cause me to do too much thinking than is probably good for me.  But this can also be a good thing, because then I become more comfortable with who I am.  And I want to be comfortable with myself.

Lately, I’ve started realizing that I’m more polyromantic than I thought.  At the very least, I have a huge crush on someone that is not Akri.  And I’m ok with that.  And he’s ok with that.  And it’s kind of a wonderful thing being able to share my affection with many people.

And I’ve started calling him Akri more and Master less.  I wonder why that is.  He is still my Master, but the term Akri seems to fit so much better, even if it’s technically not a “real” word.  It’s what works for us.

I also think I’m quite a bit more dominating than I let myself be.  I think I’m only so submissive to others but him is because that’s all I know.  But if I had my way, I’d be the one in charge.

2 comments:

  1. It can be a real word if you say so!!!lol. I have been having a hard time getting my thoughts out and on paper myself so i am with you on that. Poly is good.... If you don't mind me asking... and it is purely out of curiousity is it a crush on a girl?

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  2. Yes, it is a crush on a girl. And I know she's got a crush on me back and I'm sure she knows exactly who she is.

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