TMI

I don’t like admitting I’m wrong and I like to admit that Akri can be wrong even less.  In my eyes, he’s like a deity, though I know it’s unfair to put that much pressure on his shoulders.  But he made a mistake in my training regimen and we’re now trying to find a way to fix it.

As part of my daily schedule, I was to masturbate twice a day at scheduled times.  This has lead to masturbation and anything sexual feeling absolutely mechanical to me.  Sure, I get wet when stimulated, but I just cannot come.  I’ve tried it while watching porn, while reading erotica, while fantasizing, but nothing seems to work.

Mostly, this has left me feeling frustrated and embarrassed.  I can go through the motions, but can’t actually just reach the goal.  If I could just capture that again, I think things would work out so much better for me.  Not that things are bad right now.  But they’d be better if I could be the fully-actualized succubus self that I know I am.